SUGAR and WAMAH

MY TWO CUTE TEENIE STUFFED TOYS

I got Sugar from Rieve who gave it as a gift for being her super hero driver

when she almost missed the last trip for Cagayan.

On the other hand, Wamah or amaw was actually a gift from me myself

and I as a reward for surviving our Psyche exposure at Cebu last February.

..just in case you're wondering, i love anything monkey and bear stuffed toys, pretty obvious..

Aren't they just cute???

im dealing.. okey? dealing.

im eating.... just eatiing... lots and lots of eaatinngg...

gummy bears, shawarma, spaghetti., aaahhhh.., they taste so good!

and now im craving., yeah, im craving!!! for a cold choco from dunkin donuts, with lots of ice in it and a honey dipped munchkins., i can also eat choclates., yeah,, chocolates., ones with lots of almonds and nuts.. and oh, i miss sister andersons banana cake., one with the walnut.,

i just wanna eat... eat... eat....


what u gonna say bout that??


eat.

Grey's anatomy trip

its like 3:32 in the morning and im still awake., I cant sleep. I mean., I want to sleep BUT my brain's still working, very much awake., urgh.

Grey's Anatomy

MY ULTIMATE FAVORITE TV SHOW

20 20 20 TWENTY 20 20 20

20 THINGS i'd die for ( pagtsur oiiiy! )

♥Butterflies (anything butterfy-ee.. Butterfly addict)

♥Green stuff (i love green! super!)

♥Stuffed toys (teddy bears and monkey stuff.. ambot., mura nako nawng monkey jud!)

♥Pillows (cute pillows!!)

♥Flowers (carnations and mumps)

♥Beaches (labi na mga beach sa panglao! weie)

♥Pictures (haha! allergic kog pictures! grabeh!)

♥Michael Buble (I love his songs., mkabag damdamin! char)

♥Rings (silver rings)

♥Hats (bahalag di angayan., basta kay hats!)

♥Little kids and babies (i adore them! super..)

♥Shawarma (huuu! i wanna eat one! nay mo libre nko? cge nah? tag 40 raaahh..)

♥Artwork tees (la lang., fans lang ko sa ilang mga sanina.kebs)

♥Xanga.com (lingawest site)

♥Chocolates

♥TONY ROMA's ribs ( libreha kooooooohhh???? ehhehe! cant afford mn gowd! :P)

♥Batanes, Vigan and Banaue (anha ko beh? gi naah... uban tah? hah?

♥OR (favorite area in the hospital.. I can live there! :D)

♥Customized Everest (sakyanan ha? dili bukid na everest)

♥Nursing Uniforms (yep! love wearin em! kay puti siya., unya., mao rah.)

Seminary and institute graduation

okey so yesterday, I went to intstitue graduation with some of my friends. Unfortunately, I was not one of the graduates but yeah., at least I helped out with the music and all those. The speakers were very spiritual and President Jergal's talk struck me bulls eye! Recently, I was very busy with school stuff that i forgot to look on the more important things in life. In his talk he said that seminary and institute isn't the problem., it is the solution. TRUE., and I think that was the very statement that made me promise myself to put insitute as priority to my schedule and not make it only as an option. So now, i guess that served as my wake up call to come back closer to my Heavenly Father and feel His love through this wonderful program.

Here are some pics we had with the graduates and some seminary and insitute students in Tagbilaran:

april 6 quotes for the day

♥Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom and hurting the ones you love, to realize what you have become is not what you planned and who you are is not who you like.

♥Life is just like an hour glass. Eventually, everything hits the bottom. & all you have to do is wait it out until some one comes along and turns it around

♥There's always gonna be that one person that no matter what they do or what they say or how many times they may hurt you-you just cannot let them go because they just mean so much to you.

♥its your life. you can live it as you choose. and get the consequences you deserve.

♥Take chances, a lot of them. cause honestly, no matter where you end up, & with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are, you learn & grow with each choice you make, everything is worth it. Say how you feel - always. Be you, & be okay with it.

♥care what others think & you'll always be their prisoner

♥Stop thinking about what could go wrong and start thinking about everything that could be right

♥I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody's going to come and save you, you've got to save yourself. Nobody's going to give you anything; you've got to go out and fight for it. Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. So, don't give up on your dreams.

♥You know someone is a true friend when you are about to break down and cry but they will say the stupidest, most random thing just to see you smile.

You'll never know 'til you've reached the top if it was worth the climb. There's a fine line between love and a waste of time. But sometimes, you just have to take the chance. Sometimes it's just now or

never. And sometimes, there are no second chances.

♥If you could see through the night sky, Maybe you'd see me sitting on a rooftop Counting the stars and universes between You and me

♥if you dont go after what you want youll never have it if you dont ask the answer is always no if you dont step forward youre always in the same place

♥ Self-confidence gives you the freedom to make mistakes & cope with failure without feeling that your world has come to an end.

a thought perse

Here are some cute quotes i'v read through the net., the one's that struck me i guess:

♥laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, and dreams are forever.-tinkerbell

♥ the reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better then it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved then it will be.

♥no one looks back and sees the nights they got pleanty of sleep.

♥the higher you build your walls around your heart the harder you fall when someone breaks them down.

♥it's really nice when you can just think about someone & smile

♥ we're friends, real friends, & that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally decide to look back, i'll be here.--grey's anatomy

UNFORGETTABLE Psyche ward

DID NOT EXPECT THIS:

neeehh, just miss the good times in Cebu! Really. The psyche internship was a blast!! Weeks of laughter and kajologan in a place away from home. With all the funny and crazy experiences we had, who wouldn't miss it? Getting out of bed 4 in the morning, hospital duties at 5:30, the never ending requirements, sosyal rooms and flippin delicious food.,. yep! CRAZY., you got that right., but hey, guess what, everytime i look back, i miss every detail even more. .... and my roomates.., they were simply amazing! I couldn't have any better roomates than Lex, Jan, Kimi and steph.., they were like my sisters away from home and having them around me just feels a lot more homey.

Oh and who wouldn't forget, my Psyche patients.. yeah., theyr really buang., (literally) .,sure they throw slippers n ur face, hit u at the back, pour food on ur freakin CHN uniform or get paranoid about your presence, but caring for them and trying to understand and accept their behaviors have helped me realize that these people may get pretty weird at times but they're still humans too! People who deserve to be cared for, to be attended to, and to be loved! They were a living proof that those words written in books really are true!

The first day i got to meet my client, i wwas totally terrified! I was like, " I wanna go home!" She was shouting and pointing fingers at me and I havent even done anythin yet! She accused me of being someone who stole her flocks and hit her with a gun and a silencer n the head., somethin like that., I was

STUNNED.

SPEECHLESS.

TEARY EYED.

.. like a kid who dropped her piece of ice cream at the park..., and all i could do was just stand there. stay quiet, wait til her hallucination episode subsides.., and hold back the tears that were ready to dis embark from their tanks.. I was on my own, and I thought to myself, "this cant be happening to me, I cant give up now? Bohol's pretty far away., i have to try agen.!" And so i did try again., and the same thing happened, this time., I cried ( not in front of my client but somewhere around the grounds).., we have this goal for the entire exposure and i really felt like a loser who cant even gain the trust of a Crazy person., it was really depressing., especially when those goals and objectives keep flashing in front of you. . ( haler., gikarir baya nko ni akong pagka NUR-ES) Okey. .. so here goes the last try., talked and gathered myself and got back to the cell where my client was sitting. . , nervous as i was, i sat right beside her., (didn't even cared if she stranggles me or hit me again),. just sat there., quiet.., with my head down., and a little miracle happened. . . i don't know., it was sudden for me and surprisingly surprising., my client smiled at me., and greeted me how i was feeling now! I was like, "oh my gosh., after everythin uv done to me, u get all happy give me a grin?! AWESOME!"., that was definitely one heck of a mood swing! but yeah., i was happy anyways., she initiated the conversation and right then and there,. I gained her trust., I learned to love her everyday and little did i know that as days passed, i would miss her when i get to go back home already. .

Last day came and it was time to say goodbye., i bid farewell and it was so touching and very deeply heart warming to hear her say "Thank you Lay".,, no many words said.,, just that. period.. and she walked away., carrying with her the lotion i gave. . i smiled., held back the tears, and went away... .. now, that im here., back home., looking back to the things i've been through, well, all i can say is., it was indeed a once in a lifetime experience.., one crazy ride in a rollercoaster called life. :D CANT WAIT TIL THE NEXT RIDE!

*pic 1: at the pension house during Valentine's day. Ate pizza and some nachos.

cuzin? or neice?

wake up sleepy head.,

got up and turned on the laptop.. and there it goess..

BUZZZ..

my niece gave me the first message for the day. I dont know exactly. she's my niece but we treat each other like cuzins. But I think i'd prefer it as cuzins.. para di obvious ang age baahh.. ! hehe! Talked a little and joked about some things. She's expecting her first baby this June and she's getting pretty excited about it.., ME TOO! :D pastilan., samot nko katiguwang!

wonder if its a girl or a boy.. hmm.. m thrilled for her anyways.

She and I have been hangin for quite a long time already. I mean not really goin out but we have this connection that keeps us by each other. We've been through ups and downs., yah know. mga away things kay sometimes, our ways just gets to be obviously different.. but setting that aside, mo gawas jud ang pagkacozins.. nuh?

just recently, a man came to her life, made her feel loved, but sadly, came to break her heart. I felt sad and thought much about it. I know she made some bad choices in her life but I dont think pulling her down solves anything. . Atot pud tong lakiha toh. Amaw pud. But yeah, i told her to take it as a blessing anyway and see the brighter side of the situation.. as she says it: EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.. korek!!! And she knows that she has to face everything ... and i mean everything..

but there is just one thing that struck me and made me proud of her..

the GUTS and the CHANGE.

More than anything in her life right now, for her, the baby comes first. I love hearing her talk about her baby and feel excited about it. She came to the point where disappointment could have broken her world but she grew up and faced reality with her guts. I am proud of her. I mean there are some things we dont agree about but getting all through this is the one thing I want to let her know .. that she can pass this test. I love and care for her so much. I may not be very outspoken or showy but she knows that.. And yeah., I know she deserves a man better than that y buot na taw., irresponsible hamik.. urf. We relatives sure got her back at this one! hehehe!

Well. life is indeed unpredictable. You never know what lies ahead. The only thing you can do right now is live., and choose the road you want to walk. Much comes in the way but its never too late to turn back and pick up the pieces of who you are and what the Father would want you to be. :D

diba nuhh???

mao nah.. a message to those guys out there: If you spill the beans.... learn to eat them! Magdusa ang talo! :P

Check this out!

I was reading to some internet news and found this article interesting ., only to find out its not only me who thinks this might be a little crazy to believe., I thought it was just some silly Adobe thing., but man... it is TRUE! hehehe! :D see for yourself!

* and yes jess, i did checked it out for myself*

Check out the article: http://cnnentertainment.co.nr/2008/SHOWBIZ/Music/04/01

Surgeries..

This must be the most frustrating day of my life. We did some volunteers for OR to complete some of our hospital requirements, even paid for em and turned out we got nothing out of it. There was "scarcity" of clinical instructors I should say and lack of thoughtful consideration from our ever beloved school president. Umf umf. Too bad. But yeah., there's nothing we can do about it anyway. It's not like it's our last time.. but really.., sssaaayyyaaannngg jjammoo.. Well, there's always a next time. :D Cheer up.

..My pips and I back at the quarters..

My life story

This is a story about a girl born in the humble island of Bohol with yet little knowledge about real life and its beauty. A once little baby who learned her first step and first spoken words to the secure arms of loving parents and brothers and sister, a child who was taught to walk with her head up high, sing and dance like no one's watching, a girl who grew up to be a lady and faced reality in her own peculiar way.

This is a story about a girl who happens to be ME. :D

I was born back on April 28, 1988 in Tagbilaran Bohol to Edgar, my father, and Carol, my mom. It was midnight when my mom brought me to this world. She said she didnt had a hard time delivering me., I slid out from her womb like a flubber and i almost fell down to the basin placed below her., good thing my grandma had some good bone reflexes back then and caught me. I weighed 7 lbs and was 50 cm tall. They loved me and was immediately fascinated with my big eyes and cute little nose, and eventually named me LAYNA. . a name they call in our place that means "A girl at last".

Months passed and years flew by as my mom and dad worked overtime to raise 5 kids and provide for them. That is why, when mom and dad went out to go to work and my brothers and sister to school, I was left in care to our neighbor, the TAPUROC's. I grew up and met many new friends to play Sungka, Chinese garter, Dampa, Luksong tinik, Gym-gym and some other filipino kid's game with. Back then, it was my happiest time to play under the heat of the sun and do some running around with my friends. Then came the time when i turned 4 years old and started to develop my talents. I started to go to Ballet classes, sing and dance for a huge audience and studied piano during the weekends. It was fun and i loved performing in front of a big crowd. I could even remember that everytime we went to visit my Lola, she would give me a peso and let me sing and dance to a stage they made back at their house. Crazy but the pesos were very tempting and., what do you know, I turned out to be a very good singer! :D hehe.

Grade school days came by fast and a different story started to set in. I started to love playin with the boys and was the princess among my classmates. Maldita and astig as they called me but was a very good friend to my best friends. If you know bisaya, you'd understand if I'd say I was very "lakin-on" before. Uh hmm.. Others even thought I was goin to be a tomboy.., but THANK GOODNESS, I grew up to be a real lady! heheh. To sing and dance were still my thing, and I even learned how to backflip! :D (cool huh?) New addition was me learning how to play the bamboo flute. Haha! It was so much fun at first coz it takes time to learn to keep from drooling while you blow in the notes .. but i passed through it anyways. Okey so I studied at VDT advanced learning center where they taught the very major language, english. I could remember that because it was a very big deal, students are fined for every word spoken in visayan. Crazy huh? But it sure did helped me a lot when I started high school.

Yep! High school pretty much was different! It was the season of flaunting talents, aiming high and being as involved as you can be! I started writing for the School paper when I was in first year and called the publication "THE PENMASTERS". I was the Feature Editor back then and writing was all that I do., I loved it! Editing my juniors' articles were very challenging! Our team joined Press Conferences where I signed up for the English Feature's Category and English Photojournalism. It was so much fun! And everytime award's night comes in, Our team always gets the medal! :D First place! woohooo! I learned how to play the guiatr also did some ballroom dancing back in the days and competed until regionals (entire region 7). I was elected School President during my senior years and joined a lot of extra curricular competions where I met amazing people and friends that are worth the lifetime! The high school season ended and I eventually graduated Cum laude for class 2004-2005.

My college years for me are the best years in my life. Different sets of challenges came in, fun and laughter, crazy days and kajologan, the season where i found "true friends" that are worth diamonds. This was the time when I cried myself to sleep, laughed until I cried, feel the real sense of disapponment and happiness, got my heart broken, my trust taken for granted and lots of all those spices in life. Tough it truly is. But because I know that this is part of my Father's plan, then let it be. :D All i need to do is go., walk, choose and always remember to keep that smile on the face. I've been studying nursing for almost 4 years now, and everyday is a challenge. Nursing really wasnt my first choice, it was Psychology, but then, I dunno what happened, coz at the end, I found myself enrolled to this course.

Nursing life has taught me a lot of things. I love it! And everyday I learn to love it even more! The people, the patients, the experience, and all the challenges I get every step of the way has one way or another helped me discover more about myself and what life really is. It is not only about attending to other people's needs but it is about love, care and miracles of faith that I see in the eyes of these people. I have learned to love them and will continue to serve them with all of my heart and dedication. Yes, it is true that nothin in this world is easy but if everything is done out of love, compassion,.. the burden becomes a lot lighter. Little did I expect that growing could be so much fun! That even from the busy schedules I have, I still always have the time to relax and hang out with my friends and family, serve the Lord and make other people feel special.

Well, my life may not be as glamorous as other people's lives but I like it just the way it is...

a life worth looking back to and leaves a smile on the face..

a life filled with rollercoaster experiences..

a life unique in it's own special way. :D

a life just right for a girl who happens to be ME. :D

-layna lans belarmino-

My first!

Well, summer has just started and the place is beginning to feel a lot more warmer than ever. Just yesterday, some friends and I went down to the beach to catch some cool breeze from the shore. We checked out this hidden coastline and found it very nice to swim to.. Its in panglao just ahead of my classmate's house. They didnt hesitate to dive in and so i was left alone by the shore taking pictures of em coz i didnt got any extra clothes with me. bummer. But i enjoyed watching them anyways. Unfortunately, i still went home soaked and wet coz the rain fell so hard while i was driving.. should have swam with the others back at the beach if only i knew it was going to rain in the first place. umf.